| Saturday, August 18, 2007 |
| like a star |
things have been getting mundane. last week to lift up my spirits a bit, I went on a shopping spree. I hate it that there are so many things I HAVE to do...people telling me I should do this and that. And I know I do...it's just that, I need my own time too. I don't know why it's hard for some to understand that.
So weekends are more or less pretty private. Don't like it to be bothered with more people telling me what to do. I'm supposed to be in anilao now with my work buddies but again, there are things I HAVE to do. sucks doesn't it? I should be in that infinity pool right now with these sweeties...and yet i'm not. So what's the next best thing? go shopping again! haha. I'll just drop by rockwell for some parlor time, maybe get some coats or something. With the rainy season and all. I almost went out with the other gang last night but the rains were against me. It just kept getting harder and harder. The front steps of my house was a brand new waterfall and the pool was overflowing because of the drainage spewing from the roof. Our skylight had water everwhere in the house...so yeah, i guess that was a no. Even with caco offering to pick me up...i was stuck.
I do wanna go out and a get a drink though. It's been a while. I should be drunk on my ass in tequila in anilao by now. hehe. hopefully the next long weekend will be better. If those plans push through. It's ann's despedida de soltera and then might have an overnight party again.
Just watched Men In Trees. I like that show. Plus the guy makes it even more fun to watch. Aaah Jack. But anwyay, it made me think how much I want some romantic gestures again. A dinner and movie date that actually happens. No mention of problems, old flames, issues. Just fun, getting-to-know you laughs. Maybe flowers. no fancy gifts. Those never actually made me stand up and notice. They're never what I want anyway. But there are so many little things, priceless things that can give me goosebumps and giggles. Suprises are nice. always, always good. Especially in the middle of a horrendous work day. Like when you get a surprise visit or a little suprise note on your desk. Something unexpected.
I really need a jolt out of this comatose life. Some spice. Something out of the ordinary.
You keep wondering what your big dream is. For me, it was always about living on my own in SF. Where the streets I know by name and I have all this independent freedom. More than the city though, I want to be in the outskirts. Or near stanford. With lots of trees, where I can take everything in. It would be a big jolt, a different experience. A displacement that I would welcome. It would be hard but I'd enjoy it. But then, there are conflicts. Things to do. And no one to even share it with without some other reality check kicking in. So whenever I mention these things, my balloon just fizzles out. Haven't found anyone who would just sit and listen and understand.
Like I said, where's the romantic gesture? It's been too long.
Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands,
Honour to love you
Still I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,
You've got this look I can't describe,
You make me feel like I'm alive,
When everything else is au fait,
Without a doubt you're on my side,
Heaven has been away too long,
Can't find the words to write this song,
Now I have come to understand,
The way it is,
It's not a secret anymore,
'cause we've been through that before,
From tonight I know that you're the only one,
I've been confused and in the dark,
Now I understand
Like a star - Corinne Bailey Rae
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posted by maldita @ 4:01 PM  |
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about that being told what to do, i totally hear you on that. at uni i can remember on mondays i was free as a bird then by friday i'd already booked my weekends to the brim. i now try to take some Me time to faff about if i want. it's hard though... maybe we should start a Drop Everything and Do What I Want Club (DEDWIC)
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You and me both sister.
take me back to the promised land!
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about that being told what to do, i totally hear you on that. at uni i can remember on mondays i was free as a bird then by friday i'd already booked my weekends to the brim. i now try to take some Me time to faff about if i want. it's hard though... maybe we should start a Drop Everything and Do What I Want Club (DEDWIC)