Saturday, December 1, 2007

a new plan

everybody needs a plan. Or do they? We write so many to-do lists on a daily basis and yet we never really know where we're going or what we want to do for the next five or so years. I had a plan. And it has officially commenced. I can say that I am happy about that but like I said, everyone needs a plan. So i've just been thinking to myself, gathering ideas and thoughts to figure out just what it is I want. Some things are beyond your control, there are things that can keep you from progressing but not talking about things you regret helps.

So many people coming in to town for the holidays. I can't help but be excited and have made these little plans but not the big one. Maybe I've been getting distracted by short term that I'm having a hard time with the long one.

But i've made myself an ultimatum. Come the new year I will have decided. I will have gotten enough perspective on whether or not a relationship is something in the stars or if I will find that new path I've been dreaming of. I can't say it is all easy. Change makes for a very strong will and resilience that I have yet to be confident about. But looking forward to seeing one of my best buds come in to discuss it with me anyway. I miss our weekly talks about poetic license and leisure. Rum cokes with the sloshed sweetie. I'd say same time same place but that venue is already gone. Maybe it is time to find a new playing field.

posted by maldita @ 11:25 PM

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