Sunday, January 27, 2008

until the end of time

Conscience is something that no one can ignore. It makes us feel guilt, sadness and eventually the courage to do the right things. I suppose there will always be times when you expect more and get less. Disappointment is a fact of life. But it shouldn't let us stop what we have currently been doing - as long as your conscience stays silent. Then you feel like it is quietly agreeing.

Tomorrow is day one. I am trying to focus and avoid any moments of weakness. Let's hope I go through with it. Fixating on the end result helps big time :)

This week has been challenging indeed. The only thing that has not made me feel any negativity is the one that is not even human.

But there was also that one day when I wanted to have a semblance of nights past. Asked out some friends to a movie. After the last holiday season where we actually didn't get plastered drunk and gathered around the sofas with some good beer - just wanted to touch base again. So had dinner with N, no frills. Then over a bucket of beer we continued on, completely forgoing the movie planned. Then C came over and like a 70's show diversion, took turns exchanging our appropriate life tidbits. What made the late evening even better was that although I had come home way past the midnight hour, I still made it to the office the next day with one minute to spare. Hahaa! my perfect month is still intact...so far. Then friday night we had all gathered again to do the usual "monday night mugshots and musings".

We all constantly move in different directions. That is a fact. You cannot call yourself a friend if you still continue to pick on others for it. But this does not mean you forget those who have been kind. Even just one listening session - a common curiousity - does not cost you a darn thing. So why is it so hard for us to give and take it?

This month should be great. Plans to hang at the beach or Pampanga...going to Singapore the following week and extending through the weekend. Looking forward to it even more this time around!

posted by maldita @ 9:54 PM

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