Wednesday, May 14, 2008

turn off the light

my 102nd post on this blog. Imagine if I never changed blogs then how many would i have then?

I drove home today in a daze somewhat. since last week i've had so many reasons to go home and fall asleep with contentment and just this nice warm fuzzy feeling inside. friday i went straight to bed to avert any intentions to get sick and got some well needed rest. got to spend time with my friends in high street last weekend, even without electricity. spent sunday with the family to celebrate mother's day and hung out with even more family for a chinese lauriat dinner at Gloria Maris. In the midst of pigging out, i heard my name being called and sara was there! with je and riley and the two adorable tykes - one of which is my godson who asked me what car i drove. cute. think he should be four or five years old. i've also gotten a good deal on my plane fare and have been booked by four people in NY - so that's M, C, J and A but anyway, back to my drive...

thought about someone i hadn't thought about in a long while. that secret smile still haunts me and i was wondering - how come he has this effect on me when i think about him? a few weeks ago we hung out with other friends and it didn't seem like anything happened out of the ordinary. we were back to being as platonic as before. then we had some time alone. silence. i pretended not to be conscious and then when i looked at him he was smiling. and then we just stared at each other and then broke out with a bit of nervous laughter. I said goodbye to break the ice. yeah. good one. then got in my car and drove off. all the way home i kept getting his intriguing messages and i knew he was right behind me. then i made a sharp curve and took a detour. a few minutes later he asked why i was going in that direction. apparently he had been trying to follow me home but ended up following the wrong Vios. nope, still not the right time dear. And we called it a "goodnight". it's called tension. there is just something in the air and i suppose that's what makes the whole thing fun. it can get ruined by someone nipping it in the bud or just running the red light. right now it is hard to keep that stop sign in front of you (or him) but so far, i've been doing ok. and i think i have some help also. today i got another knowing smile that left me tingly. augh. nonetheless, tension can be a good thing. especially with someone who you can be completely quiet with and still have this conversation. I can't explain it. But it has happened. i'll just keep walking that tightrope (yeah yeah i know, so many analogies, from roads to circus) until i fall off. hopefully on the right set of arms.

posted by maldita @ 10:39 PM

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