Sunday, September 23, 2007

granted.

i haven't written a negative post in a very long while but somehow today i feel like i want to. you notice how some people (i changed the term 'friends' because they are not, in my opinion) just seem to take you for granted? they just call you when they're at their lowest point and of course, being the supportive friend that you are - you run off to be with them at their time of need. And yet some days, you find yourself in that same situation and...they're either with their boyfriends and can't be bothered or just not available. Or they call at the last minute because no one else wants to go with them. Sucks doesn't it? And yet they never realize how shitty they are.

i'd rather not think about this which is why i post it instead of confronting them - like the coward that i am. or maybe this is the beginning of when i just don't mind drifting from these types of people anymore. next time you call, i won't come to your rescue.

i know i am flaker myself. a very bad one. but most of the time, i will flake for a good reason or i know i'm going to be bad company. or we always go out anyway. but for times of need - those rare times wherein these supposed friends of mine are breaking down - i don't think i've ever not shown up. even if i have to go out of my way to wherever they are. grrr...thank God for frances and the 308 girls and my "bratty bitches" who never fail to show. Or aimee-lover who can be counted on for lambing.

If only people realize that quality time does not mean: only when it is convenient. My friends understand how much work i handle, i cannot go out during the weekdays so we schedule lovely dinners to catch up. and there is no difference whether they are in a relationship or married. we make time. j tells me that there is also a need to put some effort into it so given some other buds' nightly gig schedule - i make it a point to go on some ponti thursdays to hang out and see them. yeah i miss the old days when we had so much free time to hang out. but things change. and you adjust.

so the next time i hear of a breakup or fight, i am not going to even flinch. figure it all out yourself. don't even think of getting mad at me for this post. you're not the only one who has the right to make tampo when you want to. i could knock you out if you want to hear what i really feel. i'm done.

posted by maldita @ 3:54 PM

2 Comments:

At September 25, 2007 at 12:45 AM, Dr.Peppermint said…

"If only people realize that quality time does not mean: only when it is convenient."

i love this! that happens when people think the world revolves (and stops) because of them..

aay naku. just focus on people who will matter in the long run. :) smile :)
At September 25, 2007 at 9:29 PM, maldita said…

hey pepper! nice to see you still check my blog. thought everyone stopped when i stopped writing for a while. yeah its better to focus on better things.

i find it also helps to lower expectations (not of yourself) so that you don't get affected. that's just how others are, i guess.

and yeah, i'm smiling ;)