Sunday, October 21, 2007

all i need is you.

i can say i'm pretty contented. Don't know how long it will last but it's been a good weekend where i was able to completely escape. No thoughts of a hopeless relationship or any of that self-pity crap. More like a redemption of sorts. I'm still pretty pooped. Was in tagaytay since Friday. I hope no one I know got caught up in the bomb and fire this weekend. We all used the wifi to get real updates on our laptops through the course of the working session. I've heard of close calls (Ari, you better be saying thank you to the universe) and got to touch base with people I cared about just to check if they were all safe.

I then got so blasted friday evening, needed a moment to gather my memory the next morning. Overall it was worth it. Productive. Rewarding. Appreciation from my boss and my own expectations met.

I admit it for the past few months i've been talking to my friends about being in this rut. The rut of a 25 year old for the past 30 years. Nothing seems to have changed. But really, i guess it's a frame of mind. How many other people would want to be in my shoes? And here I am, still wanting what I haven't got. Greed is not a good thing. I do appreciate people and I give back. I think that's what is important. Not being able to take a third party perspective would be a different kind of ignorance. I would hate to be that fair weather friend who looks down on others, not even remembering that you were once in that same point in your life. So you give thanks. You look out for them. And you remember who was there for you when you needed it the most. This paragraph is a rambling of many thoughts.

had a very long day last thursday. So much preparations and also some relationships to define. Had three different conversations of various themes that really took its toll on my emotional state. But in the end, i'm glad I got it done. I found myself walking the perimeter of my office to refill my pockets for the tagaytay trip, in a daze of exhaustion. I looked up and saw these outstretched arms ready to greet me. That was a good hug. I really needed that. The unexpected is something I've always liked and enjoyed. Surprises. Just when you think that it isn't going to get any sweeter, it does.

i'm still not sure if i'm looking forward to my birthday or not...

we don't need to go that far
let's hold on to where we are
if it's real we'll make it through
cause all i need is you
we dont need the world right now
we've got time to work it out

I've been really getting into click five. and my new collection of music with Moss hehe.

posted by maldita @ 4:53 PM

3 Comments:

At October 21, 2007 at 6:57 PM, Dr.Peppermint said…

hey happy birthday!!

ewan ko ba, there must be something about our ages, or the weather, or the season, or just life's circumstances. i've been on social isolation mode this month too... just too much going on (in my life, and the people around me as well). :(

writing about it helps too diba? :)
At October 21, 2007 at 8:33 PM, Unknown said…

Birthday's on November 9, huh? Coming up pretty fast already. :) :)

Yes darling, I am definitely thanking the universe for my life. From what I gathered from the connections at Crame, underneath the area where the bomb was placed, was a huge diesel tank. It would've been a lot worse. So I'm just thanking the fates for leaving me alive, even with a sore body and sprained legs. :) :)

Believe it or not, I know how you feel about the whole "being in the rut" deal. I'm feeling that myself. People that were once really close to me, have started drifting apart, and there doesn't seem to be any repairs for it, a complete zero on relationships, still scratching and clawing for my cash, etc, etc.

Oh well, here.. *HUGZ HUGZ HUGZ HUGZ* I know you like a good hug. :)
At October 21, 2007 at 10:39 PM, maldita said…

writing definitely helps! plus it is always a challenge not to be too definitive of what has happened so as not to sacrifice others' privacy :)

nonetheless, social isolation changes your perspective. things get clearer. Friends fade for different reasons but its a fact of life. and the great ones never disappear :)