Friday, March 21, 2008

boomerang

one of my favorite animated features of all time is Spirited Away. It brought me through so many experiences that I have yet to have. No need for some cosmic connection to past lives and loves. Doesn't hurt that there was a dragon involved either. Like a little girl lost, it is a good thing to find your way again. To forget the past grievances with loved ones and accept that there is something bigger for you to accomplish - maybe not for yourself but to help others. And on that path - you ironically find what you are looking for. Haku.

I thank henry fool for introducing me to Hayao Miyazaki. The best story teller of all time. One of my goals is to make it to Japan to the Ghibli museum. I would need to book a reservation one year in advance though. But worth it. I would see displays for Kiki's Delivery Service (jiji!) and Howl's Moving Castle - the movie that taught me no one has died from being depressed.

I once had the chance to buy the complete Miyazaki collection but my cash fell short :( Someday I should be able to get it...

Help me, Lord, I thought I found it
Just like a dream turned out all wrong
Don't feel the same madness about me now
Don't feel the hurting when I'm gone
Don't feel the wonder or the sweetness
Don't feel the aching need to share
Don't feel the way I feel without you girl
Just the flowers in your hair

Should I never look into your eyes again
Should I never want to make the call
Should I never need you like my only friend
Should I read the writing on the wall

It's just as simple as a feeling
Just as simple as these cards
Why do I feel so god damn complicated
Don't feel the aching need to share

It keeps coming back without you
Like a boomerang through my heart
And cursed cupid even found me alone
Into the wound another dart

Should I never look into your eyes again
Should I never want to give my all
Should I ever need you like my only friend
Should I read the writing on the wall

And all of those themes
Hoping our dream would fall together
Never to be, if only one dreamer dreams of love

Help me, Lord, I thought I found it
Just like a dream turned out all wrong
Don't feel the same madness about me now
She loves to hear the sadness in my song

- Boomerang by Steven Strait

I am in melancholy. Been detached from this plane and into a seemingly floaty existence. I suppose this is the reason for my persistent sadness. When you want to let go of anger, it is all that is left. I find comfort in all the sweetness and "yummy" compliments...my saving angels. If not for this, I would probably creep and sink around into my pillows. Tomorrow is another day. Maybe my writing will come back to me.

posted by maldita @ 10:44 PM

2 Comments:

At March 22, 2008 at 11:01 PM, CGG said…

I have been reading your blog for almost a year now. I've read through your ups and downs. Just to give you words of encouragement....your true friends are always there for you....
At March 22, 2008 at 11:18 PM, maldita said…

dear C, it is nice to hear from you and that you relish my experiences. I hope you are not finding it too depressing hehe :) I use this as a release...i am still hopeful that the winds will change and that I will have something nice to report to you again soon :)