Saturday, June 14, 2008

somewhere out there

sometimes emotions can get the best of you and only to find out your brain has left the building. I need to keep everything intact and also remember that nothing can be foretold. To throw expectations out the window and as A said, keep to the plan initially made - is the better option.

And yet in a span of two days, my new york trip itinerary has changed. I am like a giggly schoolgirl again and every five minutes, feel like there is a need to slap myself in the face to snap out of it. R was right though, the best thing i could do for myself is to take this trip. It may or may not go according to plan - like I may not be able to go to Pixar (waaaah!) but as with anything, there shouldn't be any promises to be made. The mystery remains intact which is why we have excitement, fear and...never losing hope.

I am also excited because prior to leaving myself, my bestest friend in the whole wide world is coming home. with a baby in the burner. The month of July will definitely be hectic and I will be a busy wreck. Not to worry, this is how i like it. lag and lapses of extra time is not something I enjoy often. My need for personal space is very much existing but it isn't an excuse not to keep buzzing about.

Came home at 2am last night...kind of early in hindsight but more so because I was still tapped into the juices of the previous evening/morning so got hit pretty fast. The heat didn't help either so i'm dehydrated as can be.

ok just finished talking to my cousin. I have one place to stay in, now need to confirm the other one. Aaaaaargh! as if I wasn't giddy enough, going on this trip is going to be one hell of a vacation. I wish the dollar would get a better rate just so I could buy some more extra for buffer. Or I could just use my credit card anyway.

Almost forgot about tonight! i gotta get my to-do list done early just so I'll be able to get some rest and beauty time. So I suppose it's good I got to wake up early today.

Was just thinking again about the motivation behind this trip. I still lack the insight to create my direction - where do I want to go and be. But it is part of the hope that every little step brings me closer to it.

Laid underneath the stars,
Strung out and feeling brave.
Watch the riddles glow,
Watch them float away.

Somewhere out there - Our Lady Peace

posted by maldita @ 7:53 AM

1 Comments:

At June 14, 2008 at 9:01 AM, Dr.Peppermint said…

enjoy your new york holiday!! :) i hope you'll love it even more than i do. haven't been there in years!! :p