Monday, August 18, 2008

that's what you get when you let your heart win

This week was excruciating...and in other news - very delightful. Just when you expect that someone will forget you and dwiddle off into the sunset of your memories, surprise surprise! some form of contact each day - and periodic dreams that signify your existence in his subconscious. good thing! hah.

It was so difficult since I got back to manila. Aside from having the BEST DAY with someone special, I get on a long-ass flight back to the dungeons. And when I arrive, I am greeted with the longest lines I have ever seen at immigration. Limbs ache and head pounds, I go home to be greeted with another sweet phone call checking if I had already arrived safely. Ok, that would make the blip go up the charts. Then I wake up raring to get back into the grind and find myself with a high fever and the most painful tonsils. So this week has been somewhat of a blur with all the medication, and still not made up for lost worktime. frustrating. But the wakeup calls make the day worth it :)

Last saturday I was instructed to go to Asian and get my throat checked up. So I apparently contracted tonsi-something-phary-something-itis. And am now on antibiotics again. There goes the planned drinking session with M. And I was soooo looking forward to quality bonding time! But after my check up, I grabbed the phone and met N for coffee at ATC. It has been such a long time since he and I hung out together and caught up with what's been happening. A few friends followed a few hours later but in between got another somewhat drunken call from "Scruffy" who just wanted to know how my check up went with his frat brother. Again, unexpected surprise of sweetness.

Feeling much much better after just one day of the extra-strength meds. I am now only allowed to drink just water - the ever-faithful scruffy prescription. I just finished making my presentation to be given tomorrow, about 30 slides done from scratch. Good thing I got my wits back. So now I need to pack for the Singapore trip where our meeting will be held. Supposed to see several people there and have no clue how it will all fit since the only free night I have is tonight as soon as I arrive. I CAN'T WAIT for this week to end. I will have my strength back. I can drink again and spend time with everyone who I cancelled on last week.

So now a short break of reflection. I heard mass yesterday after SUCH a long time since could not make it to any during my two weeks in NY. I was so happy to be back inside the secure walls of Magallanes church and just have alone time with Him. The suggestion of patience kept ringing back to me - that all trials would work out on its own time. And with that I keep thinking of Scruffy. I don't want to hope for anything. There's too much time apart where anything can happen to me...or to him. Status Quo is my new favorite line. His is "we will see". I think it shows that we are on the same page - appreciate it all as it is.

The time away from my vonage will be good. I always believe in detachment - time to recharge on my own.

so here i go again...back to baggage check...back to immigration...oh but there's always charles & keith to look forward to! hehe ;)

posted by maldita @ 7:16 AM

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