Ugh. So hungover again. But somehow not as bad as the other few times. Maybe because I was able to sleep in as opposed to going to the office. Didn’t think I would be able to do it but got to hang out with two groups of friends last night. Headed off to pier 1 first in Pasong Tamo to have some happy hour with office friends. Haven’t gone drinking with them in a while so thought it would be fun and I shouldn’t flake. What do you know…buy two get one free offer! So I downed the three drinks in about one hour and wobbled off to my car. Noticed I wasn’t driving that well so good thing I was leaving it at home. E picked me up and we raced off to QC for another poker game. My second time to play so I was kinda excited. Apparently it helps to be wasted while playing because for about the first few hours, I was chip leader. They were cracking up at the thought that I was winning – for someone who could barely see anything anymore. Hahaha! Then just when I thought I was ok…J gives me an all-in move and me with the highest pair figured I could call his bluff. And then a Straight. Didn’t see that coming. Everyone did seem pretty patient with me the past two times I’ve played with them and they were gladly reminding me of the rules – except for one of my ex boyfriends who was also there who was so cold and snappy – I called that bluff in. Sometimes I have the guts to just say something out loud and told him – lighten up! Geeeeez. To which E messaged me to ask what I was thinking and I said…I’m wondering about ten years ago with this guy – what WAS I thinking! Hahaha. Don’t get me wrong, he’s nice and funny. Just don’t know why I liked him more than that. At around 3am we called it a night and had a bit of breakfast before heading home. Always hard to control my liquor when I know I’m not driving. Then I kind of lose any logic of conscientious drinking.
So today I am pooped and will most likely flake on tonight’s Piedra plans. Still up for Tabu Tuesdays but will see how I hold up. Just got back from a business trip in Davao and still have Cebu trip to plan. When am I going to get all riled up for the US? This is what happens when you’re made to be so busy at work to make up for the two weeks I’ll be gone…plus trying to maintain a balance of life.
Hmm…so there’s something to be said about all my sweeties – A, A, M, M, E, F, J…all rallying to my side for the past week. Making sure even a few curse words will get me on the floor laughing. Lots of tough love which is incidentally what I need. A periodic slap or bonk on the head to wake me up to something I’ve long stopped believing. Even telling me to my face that I’m fat – even when everyone says I’ve lost weight. It keeps me going and on track. Never complacent or self-depracating. I miss hanging out with the other two-A girls though. A good coffee date with them would really be good about now.
As I’m writing this now…my genius bro is trying to fix the irritatingly decrepit internet.
I feel satisfied at being able to break the bind of three bollocks botch-ups. The first two still assuming that they stand a chance but me, thinking otherwise. No match for the HBG! Hahahaha. Find your own meaning for that acronym. The Dutchess digs your graves.
This is my world. This is who I am. And I'm not gonna give up myself to make your life better. And you want me to change. I can't get used to
all you want me to be and I just can't pretend to be anyone else 'cause it's not really me. - Darius Rucker
