Monday, September 1, 2008

miracle

Gorgeous photo by Parc Cruz

ok, no reason to panic! hey S, thanks for the message of concern. It's all good. It was just a momentary lapse of panic. hehe. I get that from time to time. But all on my own, I came to a realization that cleared so much. Everything tormenting me in my head seems to have evaporated into nothing. Today was so productive, thanks to this clarity.

confused blockages gone, I feel as if I have been set free from expectations...from any pride-filled delusion that I can assume so much about one person. I don't think that is possible in a short span of time. Guilty of being the drama-queen, today is the start of not giving in. Just letting everything happen on its own pace.

Had an impromptu lunch with A today. We ate in one of my favorite cheap places - teriyaki boy! She reiterated what P had told me last saturday - what has happened to you?? you just seem more at ease with everything. if things don't go as hoped, you still seem like you'll be ok. I didn't believe it at first but I suppose they are right. After so much disappointment - I've finally figured that...its all because of expectations beyond basis and beyond means. thursday is another reunion dinner with the original marketing block. I suppose the sincerity of my internal calm emitted a different glow since by 10am I had received 6 different compliments :)

I'm actually inspired now. to paint again. to practice the bass again. to finally start my photography passions (look forward to the Canon Photo Marathon) and just...keep smiling! wheeee!

paramore is so...COOL.

posted by maldita @ 9:11 PM

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