Friday, October 3, 2008

wishing that.

I'm making a nice little playlist for my cousin's upcoming wedding. I found several songs that would be perfect. I need to share with M also...as he prepares for his anniversary.

I feel mostly detached from everything. I don't know if it could just be the fatigue setting in. What's nice was getting to talk with N for a bit earlier. kind of like getting shot back to earth - when you have good friends, you're ok.

Like last tuesday i got an impromptu invitation to hang out with the "buds". They were sweet as always. (think they also know how matampuhin I get hehe) After so many hours of trying to dance in between sweaty people (some shirtless ewww), we gave up. I flaked on the last stop to north park and headed home to my bed. Found out the next day that I had drunk dialed again and can't remember a thing! oh dear oh dear. we just laughed about it the next day when he reminded me of my stupid insane drivel. bwahaha. I am such a lightweight - three drinks! oh geezus. plus I always, always drunk dial him. Good thing he finds it amusing hehe. But it is a clear indication that I would want to end a night out with him - hearing that voice saying to me: laseng ka na naman! bwahaha! If only i remember, right? I should kick myself and stop though. I end up saying stuff I shouldn't!

but back to being detached. I'm starting to get insomnia again. not a good sign. it is always an indication of my innermost anxiety. or could just be the lack of alcohol? tsk tsk.

And what a terrible friend I am...I have not yet gone to visit F! kick kick kick! i miss her. What has all this work done to me? I have become a dull ol' girl who has no free space! after this weekend...it should all change.

And when I held you
You would almost always hold me down
you could see through everything I said I was falling
and you said not to fall on you
I've bitten every finger 'till it bled

Wishing that you loved me too
Wishing that you loved me too
Wishing that

And when I kissed you
You would almost always kiss me back
But I could tell your mind
was with someone else
Oh my hands are folded
neatly on my lap and I am
picturing your body as I ask myself if

You love me too
Wishing that you love me too
Wishing that

Listen to my nervous laughter
sunken deep inside my heart
My lips are dry I'm teary eyed
For you my love
Harken all you fallen angels
Help me find a place to rest
My head is pounding here beneath
the weight of this
I'm wishing that

And you know me
Oh you know me more than anyone
When I hear your voice
everything I've done disappears from memory
Oh my darling come and save me
Tell me I'm the one you're dreaming of
Tell me that

You love me too
Wishing that you love me too
I'm wishing that
You love me too

posted by maldita @ 3:18 AM

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