i miss capones. I haven't had a nice drunken night out in so long. Not for anything else, but because I've been so busy packing my stuff for the move. Schedule starts tomorrow until the weekend. So i guess this friday is out too. shucks. i'll have to make up for it next friday...
i found a big box last night. stuffed with notes. every possible note you can imagine from high school to college. From these girls who said "friends forever" and yet I haven't talked to in years. hahah. the best were from Anne. Hilarious woman, and probably the only one I like reminiscing with. We wrote about everything in class! using different colored post-its and notecards. I had to save those that she meticulously made.
i guess i've been out of the loop lately. haven't been able to really hang with my friends. partly due to the move. another part because of the medication that hinders alcohol intake, another part...i just get lazy. tsk tsk.
maybe by some miracle, i will have finished packing by friday...actually have some going-out clothes that are left unpacked and I can skeedadle over to capones to catch their last set. oh for a miracle :)
A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia.
A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one.
A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions.
You scored better than half in Nerd and Geek, earning you the title of: Modern, Cool Nerd.
Nerds didn't use to be cool, but in the 90's that all changed. It used to be that, if you were a computer expert, you had to wear plaid or a pocket protector or suspenders or something that announced to the world that you couldn't quite fit in. Not anymore. Now, the intelligent and geeky have eked out for themselves a modicum of respect at the very least, and "geek is chic." The Modern, Cool Nerd is intelligent, knowledgable and always the person to call in a crisis (needing computer advice/an arcane bit of trivia knowledge). They are the one you want as your lifeline in Who Wants to Be a Millionaire (or the one up there, winning the million bucks)!
Congratulations!
Also, you might want to check out some of my other tests if you're interested in any of the following:
Is backbiting really a human trait? I attribute my reasons to cowardice, not being able to tell someone how i feel upfront. Another reason would be that i consider it a fact and i just said something that might not be flattering but still part of acceptance. Like if someone is just always in a conceited frame of mind, i figure that's really how he/she is but we're still friends anyway. Doesn't matter.
Rumaging through all your old stuff tends to make you remember stuff. before you throw them out. and sometimes there are things that makes you want to kick yourself in the ass for. Such as that check dated 2003 (four years ago! dammit!) for US$297 and i can't even remember why the hell i have it. but it was addressed to me. and why didn't i deposit it? why? why? urg. i'm not going to revel in it anymore. sigh. must have been all the stress in AIM that caused me to zone it out of memory. still stupid.
I saw some old high school photos. and notes. and all these other things. one time, the backbiting in my group of girls got so bad, we didn't know what to do about it. It was just so intense that we would have lunch silently. Then someone had a great idea. Why not just fight it out. So one lunch, we skipped our daily dose of carbs and proceeded to the field. And we just pounced. thank God for all girls schools where no boys would witness it and throw cattle calls to cheer you on. I seem to recall a few hair pulling but it was more throwing empty punches and rolling around in the grass. at some point it got so messed up we just stopped and lay on the ground laughing so hard. good stress reliever. but not something i'd recommend to the weak of heart.
the next time i bump into my old buddy, think i'll remind her of that insane afternoon. and we can have a good laugh about it again.
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BOOTS! I want some nice brown leather ones. not the pleather fakers. nice straight and heeled boots to wear with jeans. second picture from the left...
someone i knew passed away today. I can't say we're really good friends but I can say we were friends once but our initial associations dwindled away years ago. he was nice and always had good things to say about people. He always smiled and you hardly really saw him in a bad mood. Knowing that someone so young could disappear from humanity just like that has made everyone rethink their lives once again.
Not long ago the discussion was raised among several people as to why the value of work and earning a lot of money has become moot and unattractive. Here is one more reason to help us understand. Being happy is not about earning so much money that you can buy it. Having a great job and dedicating your whole being into it is not good anymore. Because it takes apart your life. Or you wrap your substance around something/someone other than yourself. It's not really about being selfish, but to care about yourself enough to take a day off, to relax, to laugh with your friends or spend sundays with the family. It's not JUST about the money anymore.
As a colleague once asked me: how much are your weekends worth?
There was a time when I threw everything I had into my work. I wanted to succeed. I wanted to prove something. But that made things difficult on everyone else around me. I was either always listless or irritable. I was numb from exhaustion that i had no time to even cry a tear that the love of my life had just left for another country. I did it so that I could not stop and feel anything. Think it was the right choice? eeeeeh. wrong. To throw away your relationships is like throwing away what makes you want to wake up every morning. Something inanimate like a job or money can give you a hug or kiss when you need it.
Everyone has a choice or choices to make. I'm not saying throw away your jobs and live like a bum without a care in the world. You have to pull your own weight. But there isn't just one option. You can find something that you enjoy doing. And then once in a while, step back and find a smile in something else. If you aren't happy, make a change. do something. now. before your time comes and you'll live a life of regret that you didn't stop to appreciate how good it is to be alive. Or worse, not have the time to look back at all.
what makes keith the perfect boyfriend? Aside from the extra dose of crazy that is elliot he puts up with, he still manages a combination of both giving her what she wants and he gets what he wants too which is...getting her what she wants. I suppose there is usually a package deal that comes with the ever devoted partner and that is...they want the same in return. They want you to fawn over them and not survive without their constant reassurance. And then you have the other parallel wherein they don't give a crap and most likely, they really don't. So we go back to keith. the balance. the ghost of the perfect partner who's confident (therefore not needy or clingy) but still gives you all the attention and affection you need. is there anyone out there who can stand elliot as a girlfriend? yeah there is...but chances are he doesn't want her to survive without him. that's not healthy.
love isn't cramming your whole life into another person's. it's having your own identity but making a little bit of room for someone else. I see that in my friends' relationships now. They're healthy and happy. If you don't have your own life, what do you have to share then?
oh and did i mention he plays his fantasy roles well?
who am i kidding...i'd still rather be kissed by zach braff! check out the clip...(warning: spoiler)
This is my world. This is who I am. And I'm not gonna give up myself to make your life better. And you want me to change. I can't get used to
all you want me to be and I just can't pretend to be anyone else 'cause it's not really me. - Darius Rucker
